So before we begin, I warn you that this piece may be triggering for some people. Rest assured, there is no risk of self harm, nor is that what is meant by the lines written. (you’ll understand when you read it)
I woke up with a feeling of dread (thanks, chance to relax. This is when my brain likes to spiral) and the following is the brain dump I did to get it all out. It’s very raw and vulnerable.
Overwhelmed
Too much stuff
Too much noise
Senses overloaded
Why am I even here
What do I contribute
How do I live
Why is everything so hard
Can’t I just live my life?
Without having to sacrifice it?
Every day is a new scam
Every day is another spark of hope
But I am a sham
I play along every day
To seem like I fit in
But I don’t
I don’t want to
I just want to live
Every day
With my family
But
The world is
Overwhelming
Too much stuff
Too much noise
Senses overloaded
Sometimes the load gets heavy. Sometimes a deep breath and long exhale helps to let it go. Sometimes a warm shower. We can’t do it all so we must let it go. One day at a time, one thing at a time. Let it go. We will be here so release and let it go. I love you.